I don't know...

[blake]

I don't know anymore.....My posting it might slow down or i might leave for a little bit, i just need time....Earlier this month a friend died, she was like a little sister to me and she died. It screwed me up pretty badly, and now. A friend i made through roleplay died last night. He meant a lot to me, his name was Bleighton but, everyone called him Bly. I wanna deny his death but, i can't and the thing is a little piece of me kinda died when i found out. I was off being happy and living life, and he died. Its hit me really hard losing two people close to me so close together. I wanna curl up in a ball and die, just to be with them that is the truth. I feel guilty because some of you might not get replies for a while but, i can't handle it. I lost too much in one month that its taken its toll on me. So i don't know, i might slow down on replying or just take a break. All i know is, i'm sad and depressed and at the moment wouldn't mind dying. So yeah

[bleakradiance5]

Just be strong. We all love you. And I for one will keep you in my prayers. Chin up kid and keep that happy wand a-wavin'.

[brendentaylorscott]

You wouldn't be helping a single one of us if you died right now, love. Plus I would miss my Blakey time. So, run yourself a bath tomorrow romance yourself with candles and maybe some chocolates and totally cry it out because once you get all that shiz out of your system you will be able to began your healing process. I know death is hard to cope with but honey it happens to everyone and with good reason. Think about it. We all have a purpose here and once that purpose is met we get to enjoy the after life of however you choose to believe. I love you though and I want you to know that I'm here for you. I'll be available to talk tomorrow after school. Sweetheart, purge that depression out. I'll miss you while you take a break. (I suggest a couple days.)

[blake]

Thanks Mat<3 I think i might do that Vegas. I'm just upset and hurt, i know its stupid. Its just hard to believe they're both gone when i don't want them to be. Thank you guys and you both know i love you.

[final1]

Hey you.
Just to let you know that i'm here for you too, i recently lost someone and the pain is unbearable. but i just took a walk in this quite little forest near where i live, sat down in the crap and cried for a good couple of hours, just by myself. Sounds stupid and crappy but it really helped. So i agree with Vegas, seriously just have some you time and get it all out.

Alot of people always say that the ones you lost wont want you to spend your time without them being sad, but we never listen, its hard not to be and i understand that soooo much. But they're right, your friends wont want you to be depressed hun. Take some time away, but when you come back you know we are all right here for you.

I'm always avaliable to talk about anything with you. i love you very much and as much as it doesn't seem like it now, it will get easier. I promise.


love from your Lulu
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[ohholivia]

<sup>First, it is okay to be upset about this. I feel like so often when bad things happen to us the outside world tries to force us to just 'suck it up'. You don't have to suck it up, and you have a whole family here that will help you get through this. I lost someone very close to me and had no outlet, so I understand the importance of one. Baths are great, chocolate is chemically created to make you happy, and crying will always make things feel better.
Second, my heart would hurt tremendously if you left the world, too. We all love you here, sweetie, and we are all here for you. Also, and I think I speak for everyone when I say this, we will understand if you feel the need to take a break. This is a hard time in your life and you need to take care of yourself.
I don't have any special words of wisdom but I can promise you that things will get better in time. They really will. You'll be able to breathe again soon.
I love you very much and I am here for you whenever you need me.

Always,
Olivia</sup>

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[anabeth clarise sinclair]

hey sweetheart. I'm with everyone on this. you wouldn't be doing us a favour if you died right now. I think everyone understand you needing a break from all of this. It's ok to feel upset and you deserve to give yourself a break from life. As much as we don't want them to, things like these happen. It makes us want to cry, scream and die. We get moodswings and sometimes feel like it's best for us to be alone. And for sure we find times where we actually FEEL alone. Just remember that you have a bunch of people from around the world that are here for you. Losing people is hard, but it also makes you stronger. They'll always be a good part of your life. So instead of trying to forget them (like many people do), give them the honor of remembering all the wonderful things you've done with them and how important they are to everyone. You're not alone and personally, I'm a great listener. So don't hesitate to send me a PM, talk to me via brackets on ic-chat, send me an email ([e-mail]) or just add me on msn. We just want you to feel better, regardless of how much it takes or how we get you there. I know it may sound masochist, but listening to sad songs helps me get through hard times. It helps me remind myself that everyone goes through things like these; and that it's not just my stupid life that sucks bigtime. I love you honey. And don't forget to try and smile once in a while, even if it's thanks to a memory that comes to you between tears. Everyone's smile is marvelous, and it always makes you feel a bit better. And I'm sure yours is the type that makes the world a bit brighter. Natt ♥ ♥

[corey]

take as long as you want sweetie. and, just like everyone said, you would be doing no-one a favor by dying, it's just make us all feel like you do =(. if you need anything, i'm here for you, just PM me and i'll give you my email or something. we all love you and just want you to be happy =)

love hayley xx

[bleakradiance5]

Well... I know that I spoke a lot to you on AIM and all but I still feel like a bit of a dick when I look at the things eveyone else has said here. I know the loss hurts, I know I told you too much that I understand considering that I've lost my dad and things like that. No I don't know exactly what you're going through, never having lost a close friend to suicide, much less two in a month, but no matter how well I understand the problem I'll always be here for you. I love you like a sister Annie and I'll do whatever it takes to make you smile. I understand that I may not be able to as well, and if that's the case then so be it but I promise that things will get better, and that I'll be here for you until they do, and long after that. <3