Jackson Knox Hill

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Character Name: Jackson Knox Hill
Nickname(s): Jax
Gender: Male
Age: Twenty
Sexuality: Homosexual
Weight: 160
Height: 5'9
Appearence:

Jackson has rather shaggy dark brown hair that he doesn't really pay much give much love behind a good washing every morning and a hair cut every so often. He figures if he's going to get it cut it might as well be something he likes but he definitely wouldn't put so much thought into it to actually find something else he likes, so he has had practically the same hair cut for close to four years.

His face is fairly pale as the rest of him is but his face, for some reason, seems to be paler then a lot of his body. Jax has always thought of himself as moderately attractive, attractive enough to get by really. Through most of his life he has been a bit of a loner so not many people were around him to tell him what they thought of him. He wouldn't have cared anyway. He has smooth cheeks and a fairly unblemished face, lucky for him. His eyes are medium brown and generally a little vacant looking. The color of them shifts a little toward haze; for no real reason really but it sometimes seems to link up to what mood he's in but he, himself, is a little skeptical about that.

Jackson has his ears stretched to a pretty reasonable size in his opinion. If his mother knew he had them would have a heart attack of course no matter what the size. He usually keeps hollow metal plugs in his ears since he doesn't feel like putting in the effort and money into getting different ones. The only other piercing he has is a septum piercing. Another thing his mother would freak about but he hasn't seen either of his parents for a little more then a year. Most of time he has a ring in his nose but sometimes he has a barbell if he needs to appear as if he has no piercing there.

Jackson doesn't work out a whole ton or anything but be does try and be somewhat to keep himself healthy. You would think health wold be something Jax wouldn't care about, and actually, some of it he doesn't care about but he does want to be feel good which kind of goes in hand with being healthy. As a result of this he has a pretty good body, which in part is actually do to genetics but also 'cause of how he eats ect.

If you asked Jackson if he cared about the way he dresses he would probably respond with a no. This, however, is not completely true. He will only wear certain things but there is some truth in it. He doesn't care of what he's wearing is super worn out or if it looks new and nice. He doesn't gave a damn what so ever if his jeans are torn up and actually, he tends to write on them a lot with paint pen. So Jackson's usually is a loosely form fitting random t-shirt, a plain black hoodie, some loose fitting straight leg black jean, and usually a pair of slip on Vans knock offs. Beyond that it doesn't get much different. He rarely attends fancy events since he would have to wear something more formal, and he sure does hate formal wear.

Personality:

On the outside Jackson appears to be quite gentles and sweet. He'll listen to you and give you attention if you want it, almost no matter what. Well, if he really doesn't like you he won't give you so much as a glance but that doesn't happen very often. Jackson is quite affectionate and is pretty much the person to go to if you're upset about something since he is always willing to comfort people and give advice.

The only time you do not want to be around Jackson is when he's upset. He has an amazingly short temper and when he loses it and gets angry the part of him mind that regulates between right and wrong gets kinda wonky. If doesn't know someone very well and then make him quite angry then he does his best to suppress it but a lot of the time he will just leave the situation before he gets in trouble. Jax doesn't have a hard time saying rude things to people when he's angry and doesn't know them very well and sometimes he will be quite malicious and get revenge on people where he sees fit.

If he's quite comfortable with the person he's angry with if he doesn't leave then things tend to go toward violence. He tries not to hurt his friends but he has been known to be quite abusive in intimate relationships with people. Jax has gotten in trouble in school before for violence against other students but he has never gotten in real trouble since he very careful about how he carries out his anger. He is pretty clever and knows how to avoid the consequences of his actions. Whenever he is violent with somebody is super apologetic after wards and usually promises never to do it again. Usually if someones the target for his violence you'll be targeted in the future.

Jackson tries not to have much interaction with females. He just doesn't like a lot of them and thinks they worry too much and are too whiny. He will put up with them when he has too but generally he tries to avoid them. He has a few female friends who he likes but they tend to be pretty tomboyish.

I don't think Jackson could be considered an alcoholic but he does have self-created issues with drinking. Whenever he is stressed, angry, or sad he will go off into a room and isolate himself with a bunch of whatever he can get people to buy him. On those nights it would be best advised to stay far from him and if he's wasted then generally he won't bother you unless you bother him first.

At times, depending on his mood(which can change rather quickly), he is rather sarcastic and a little predatory. He will switch into the this state of mind where he will use the nicknames 'babe' and 'sweetheart' with complete strangers. In this mood he also can be snappy and rude to people he doesn't want to interact with. So Jax isn't actually that outwardly sweet all the time, but he tends to be. He only gets into his predatory asshole mood sometimes and usually when he's undersexed.

Sometimes when Jackson gets depressed, or actually whenever he needs comfort he has a fancy knife that his father gave him as a early teen that he uses to cut his leg. He has been to therapy before and he told his therapist about and he said that it was a coping mechanism that was quite unhealthy but really, Jackson didn't care as long as it worked. He is pretty much addicted to cutting and is pretty open about it.

History:

Jackson grew up a fairly normal middle class home in a suburban neighborhood on the outskirts of the city. He has a twin brother, and older sister, a mom, a dad, the usual. They lived a pretty peaceful, normal life. Jackson's dad worked as a office manager and his mom worked as a masseuse in spa. Both jobs didn't bring massive amounts of money but enough for the family to scrape by on.

His life was pretty normal until Jackson was around the age of thirteen. Jackson and his twin Casper had always been pretty close friends, they fought a lot sometimes but still were good friends. Jackson started developing strange feelings for his twin, the same kind of feelings he was starting to get about a different boy in his class. Feeling that one, boys shouldn't be having about other boys, and two, for sure not about their twin.

After that he started drawing back into himself more and stopped being that social. Jackson became easily violent when angry and rather malicious when he wasn't being violent. His parents were quite surprised by this and decided to send Jackson to a therapist. It wasn't actually solving the problem but Jackson became better at controlling his anger around his parents and making sure they didn't find out when he hurt someone or cussed them out.

Around the age of fifteen Casper actually came out to the family that he was gay which didn't end up causing many issues at all accept for their mother whining about grandchildren. The conversation went something like this. “Well at least I have Jackson! Right? You'll give me some grandbabies?”. Then Jackson realized that it would be fine for him to be gay and his family would accept him so he went ahead and said. “Well, actually, I am kind of gay too”. Yeah, that tripped everyone up a little but they were fine with that too. Even his mom who told them she excepted one of the two to adopt.

Jackson ended up keeping his feeling about his brother to himself for a few years to come but as he neared seventeen it was beginning to be too hard to handle. He had started becoming obsessed with his brother and couldn't handle the secret keeping. He told his brother. His brother was actually kind of calm about it, it scared him but he trusted that it would pass and that his brother just needed to go out and find some boy to ravage.

So Casper told Jackson to go find someone he liked and not be so anti-social, which is what Jackson did. Jackson pretty much whored himself out to whoever wanted him to try and make the feeling for his twin go away but they didn't really. Jackson became a little delusional as the months went on, he began planning something. A plan that really he shouldn't have made, but, he was a little crazy and he was desperate.

On a night when the twin's parents were out and it was late late at night, Jackson hatched his unfortunate plan. While Casper was sleeping Jackson tied Casper down to the bed and more or less raped his brother. It was only technically rape since his brother had never said yes but once it started Casper had been too afraid to say no. Jackson thought that his brother maybe had changed his mind since Casper hadn't said no or tried to stop him which made him excited and hopeful. But then directly after that night Casper announced to the family he was moving out early and into his boyfriends house and it had been already okayed with his boyfriends parents. Their parents were fine with it but sad to see their son leave.

Jackson went into a state of complete and utter depression. Cut himself probably more then once a day and was never home. Always somewhere else, just to try and get rid of the memory of Casper. He drank when he could get the booze, had a lot of ambiguous sex and just moped a lot. This went on for almost five months but then he found a guy he like and they started dating. It didn't last long but it got Jackson out of the depression he was in.

He moved more into the city, into a small little apartment and the perfect job for him, washing dishes at a Chinese restaurant. Really, he really enjoys his job. He gets free food and he doesn't have to talk to anyone, perfect. His life is fairly uneventful but he enjoys it a lot more. He's lived in the apartment for a few years now and recently got a different job working at a Lebanease restaurant washing dishes.

Sample Rp:

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Celeb:

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Out Of Character:

Hehehe. SECRETZ!(benji)
Idk why theres so much incest in my charries.

[( tahlia )]

I'm gonna start you off with a WOW! I actually loved reading this app, so job well done love. There's a few spelling and punctuation errors that need to be watched but overall this was wonderful. I love how there's two sides to him and I love how he can snap at any minute. It makes him sort of dangerous and extremely interesting. I cannot wait to see him interacting with other character.