Post by ( shannon ) on Oct 20, 2011 18:37:09 GMT -5
Dear Members of Central, both past and present,
Every single day, messages are written. They might be quick memos, long letters, or even a small text message. Yet of all the messages I have written in my life so far, this is by far the hardest.
I am officially closing Central.
This is one of the hardest decisions I've ever had to make in my entire life for many reasons. For the past nine years of my life, I have found a home in the world of online rpg. I started really getting into writing when I was nine and when I discovered these rp sites on proboards and invision boards, I couldn't resist. After a few years, I knew I wanted to run my own rp site. For awhile, I actually took over one of them. But saying goodbye to that site cannot be compared to saying goodbye to this one.
For the past three years of my life, I have poured my heart and soul into Central. There were countless numbers of nights where I would sit online for hours upon hours designing layouts, writing up rules, or doing my own posts. I fell in love with being an admin and I vowed to be the best possible leader I could be. I refused to act as some sort of tyrant and promised to be connected to my members. Because of these personal commitments, I have made lifetime friends through this site. I even met some of my best friends. There were many who came and went, but I want all of you to know that in some way, you all touched my heart. It doesn't matter if you talked to me for one minute or for years on end, you all brought joy into my life at one point of another and there are no words to express just how thankful I am for that gift.
I will never ever forget the numerous all nighters pulled or the constant posting back and forth over a day's time. Sure, we all had our moments where we got caught up in silly drama, but in the end, none of that stupid fighting matters, because in the end I came out of this experience meeting people who have changed my entire life. Because of all of you, I have come to terms with a lot of issues in my life. I have learned to be a better person and to realize that there are so many people out there that have a story to tell, whether it be through chatting on aim, or writing it through posts. From the time when I started rpging to now, each and every story has shaped my personality. I grew up writing and I plan to continue writing until the day I die because there are simply so many words in the world that need to be used and placed and written down and the fact that all of us have come together for the past three years to do that is a magical thing. Nobody can take this experience away from us and I hope that all of you cherish the time in which Central existed for your entire lives.
I have made the decision to close Central for a few reasons, which are all mainly personal. I thought I would never grow out of rpging, to be honest. I had this idealistic view that Central would always be there to fall back on. It is a terrible terrible feeling to realize that something you have put your soul into for three entire years is something you are no longer interested in. There were times over the past nine years that I would spend at my computer instead of spending time with my family- I look back on this with no regrets, but at this point in my life, I need to reassess a few things. My workload at school has also grown, and while time is definitely a factor in my decision, the biggest factor is my own personal loss of interest.
I owe the world's biggest apologizes to the members who have stuck around until the end. I am sorry it had to end like this, with me basically neglecting the site because I didn't want to face the truth. It wasn't fair for me to let the site go like this without any sort of explanation or reasoning. And while I know some people think I didn't care, I really did. The guilt of my own personal sudden lack of interest has been eating away at me for the past few months. But there is no excuse for what I have done and I am sorry, especially to my friends. I made the assumption that you would all be there when I finally came to my senses and that was absolutely wrong. I am sincerely sorry for not being around- I am literally in tears right now over what I did. I feel ashamed to have let you all down like that and if you can't accept my apology, I will understand. However, no matter what you may need, when you may need it, I will always be there for you. There is always some way to get a hold of me. I'm sorry I can't be here as much as I want to be.
I always said Central would be around forever- and it will be, just not in the conventional sense. Central can never die because the experiences we had here will be with us forever. The things you learned from Central, whether it be kindness or writing skills or friendship, you will pass on to other people, whether you realize it or not. Central has shaped me and the values I have learned from this experience will never escape me- they have effected who I am and will always effect my decisions.
So from the bottom of my heart, thank you for everything each one of you has done for me. I will always miss Central but I will never forget it and I hope none of you will either.
Thank you, I love you, and best of luck in all that you do. May you carry the experiences from Central with you wherever you go.
Always and forever, Shannon.
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Ps- If I ever decide to do another site in the future, everybody here will be the first to know about it. But if I do, it will not be Central.This site had its run. Also, you can contact me best through email: shanstinator@gmail.com and if you want more contact info just let me know through there or aim (xshannonsaywhat)
Please feel free to leave comments, rants, whatever you need to say below.
i love texting you and whatnot. you were the first person i told after my boyfriend (well now ex lol) asked me out and you've always supported me so much in my writing and everything and for that i thank you. we better still talk and text and tweet and sext (what!?) and if not i'll cry. so, yeah! love you <3 
